Coming back from the Jesus Culture conference gave me a fresh feeling and passion for Jesus. This fire burned for a really long time and it was just amazing being able to love in God and basking in His love. At the moment I felt like this feeling could last forever and I would never grow tired or weary, but I was wrong.. It wasn't God who wasn't good enough for me, but it was me who's not good enough for such an awesome God. The duties and responsibilities I have every single day, whether it be for school, family, friends, boyfriend, or even church, fills up every moment of my day. Though these things shouldn't be a burden, it slowly becomes just that. I slowly grew lazy to want to go out with friends and school was my number one priority. Church kept me busy all 7 days a week which quickly drained my fire away for God. My sister once spoke the words, "Don't become a Martha." This simply means to not do so much for God to where it becomes a duty rather than doing it to glorify His kingdom. When I thought of preparing a prayer meeting or even attending all the morning prayers, I didn't feel a sense of joy. Instead, I felt empty.
I know that there's a reason why God lead me to accidentally click on my blog link. It's mainly because God is jealous for me and all of me. Yes, He enjoys seeing us glorifying His kingdom serving in various ways at church, but more than that, He longs to have a relationship with us.
Daddy, guide me home. I desire to seek You and for Your love to captivate my heart.
Amen.
