Light in the darkness..

Thanksgiving 2009 recap...

Ahhh I was extremely excited to have my almost one week break! Then.. I had to get my wisdom teeth pulled! I knew this would ruin my Thanksgiving meal -_- But what I wanted to do most was the Black Friday shopping! I really didn't have anything I wanted specifically but I just wanted the experience :) I knew that getting my wisdom teeth pulled was God's perfect timing because it was MUCH cheaper; $100 per tooth (thanks tony)! That's literally impossible! So.. I went to the dentist's office Tuesday right after work & I was so scared. If you know me well enough, I don't do well dealing with pain, at all! I'm the baby of the family that did not have to go through ANYTHING except bask in the ambiance of being spoiled =P About a few months before this, I got an estimate x-ray to see which ones I needed pulled and 2 dentists both told me that I needed all four of my wisdom teeth pulled.. So I was going into the office with anticipation of getting all of them pulled. Tony took me in for x-rays and he gave me wonderful news #2 that my top 2 wisdom teeth don't exist! I was in complete shock! Wow! Thanks God so much for completely taking my two top wisdom teeth away! That is only possible with God!!

Okay.. So yayyy, I got my left wisdom tooth pulled and Dr. Kathy said she would be too tired to do the other side. So I went home in pain.. Yes it is EXTREMELY painful -_- But I also thank God that I could still eat with my other side. God's will :) Although I could successfully go shopping for black friday, I ate some wonderful home made Thanksgiving food! :):) & I just got my other side pulled on Saturday, which went by much faster! I had an audience too! Angela, Jennifer, Ann, & Maxine! Thanks for the support ya'll! They did tell me that blood was flying everywhere though, hahaha!

Anyways, I'm sitting at home on a Monday because I wanted some rest but I thought I'd share this wonderful testimony with the world! & to also spend my 'resting day' with God, because He really has done so much for me through all the pain and misery.

Song of songs 4:9-10
"You have stolen my heart, my sister, my bride; you have stolen my heart with one glance of your eyes, with one jewel of your necklace. How delightful is your love, my sister, my bride! How much more pleasing is your love than wine, and the fragrance of your perfume than any spice!"

Thank You, God <3

A chance..

Today, I was given a chance.. A chance to be a better me.

Yes, that may sound cliche, but it's true!

As I arrived to work today, everything was going perfectly! I was so thankful for the many great things God has given to me! I shifted my car into park and started heading out of my car. Gently, I opened my car door.. Usually my car door stops itself at some midpoint before fully extending, and it did. But the strongest wind EVER came and pulled my car door fully back, and BAM it hit the car next to mine.. At first, I thought, "Why God.. my day was so perfect and then THIS had to happen...". Hesitating on what I should do, I finally decided to go to my office, write out a note of what happened, name and number included, and tape it to the car that I had accidentally hit. As the day progressed, I finally realized that I shouldn't have blamed God for what had happened, but thank Him. I needed this as a test to see if I really was practicing to live like Him, or just claiming to live like Him. In the end, Olga Longoria, who sounded like an older woman, called me and appreciated me for leaving a note. She also asked, not requested, if I could go to the Chrysler Dealership & buy her a little bottle of paint. She also made it clear that if I forgot, or if it wasn't convenient for me, that I do not have to get it. I think I can coincidentally have that dealership be 'on the way' for me... :)

Thank You, Jesus.

P.S. I'm on day 3 of the 90 day Bible reading plan! May this journey continue!

Psalm 46...

46:1 "God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble."

I find myself stumbling upon this bible verse a lot. Whenever I am going through any problem, I like to flip open my bible and read some highlighted key points I've made in the past years. And I always flip a few times, and see this bible verse highlighted in bright pink flashing at me.. Every time I read this verse, tears start forming in my eyes. 'How come you are always so comforting, Jesus? You know exactly what I need and when I need it.' His comfort is so warm...

Then the next time I see after verse 1...
46:10 "Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth."

AMEN God! You WILL be exalted & lifted high! You are WORTHY to be praised!

How many people can say that they are completely satisfied by something they can't even see? How many people can say that they have a father, best friend, and lover all in one?
I CAN!
And how many of those that said "I CAN" want more & more people to join us?

Spread His word because it is good. Because it changes. Because it saves.

When we reject Him..

Do you know how hurt He feels when he tries to do something good for us, yet we reject Him? When He knows what is best for us, although we do not know what is best for ourselves.. When we think we know what is best for us. When we are so selfish. The hurt He feels is so tremendous that His heart literally breaks whenever we do not obey Him ,and even more when we act so viciously in return.

I felt this hurt that He feels for us today. When I tried to pick my recovering dog up to use the bathroom after work this afternoon, he reacted so viciously. He turned around and tried to bite me. His owner. The one who has been taking care of him. The one who has been doing everything so unselfishly for his good. At that moment, my heart literally felt broken because I care for King so much, but he tried to bite me like I was trying to hurt him. Maybe it was because I am the one who forces him to eat his medicine. But even this is for him to quickly recover. He probably doesn't understand why I do the so called "cruel" things to him.

Likewise, Jesus tries to 'give us our medicine'. Sometimes we do not understand why Jesus does the things He does and we act out so cruelly...

Thank You, Jesus for not giving up on us. Thank You for being so selfless and doing everything for our sake, and not for Yours. Please give us reminders every day about Your love for us. Amen.

His love for us !

This past week has been so hectic for me.. The past weekend I experienced one of the most traumatic moments of my life. My parents, Jennifer, and I were on our way to Sam's when we received a phone call from Angela. She sounded extremely panicked telling us that she heard our chihuahua make a loud cry and as she went downstairs she saw that he was stuck under our fence. So we rushed home not knowing what to expect. As we arrived, we saw King stuck under the fence and his eyes were blood-shot red. Apparently he went through a hole in the fence and got through to our neighbor's backyard. Their dog had attacked King as he was trying to escape. We panicked and rushed him over to the nearest emergency hospital. They told us that we needed to drive up to an animal specialist, located in college station. As a result, we drove this distance to get the help he needed. Thankfully everything was okay. We went back to A&M on Friday to pick him up and now he is in the process of healing.

Today, our pastor at church was talking about God's love for us. He brought up the incident that happened to King as an example. Saying that when King got into this accident, we didn't think "maybe we should just get rid of King and start over with a new puppy". Like Jesus, when we make the wrong choices and 'cross the fence', He does not decide to give up on us. He is willing to pay what ever price it costs to get us back, like how we were willing to spend $3,200 on King. When we saw King stuck, our hearts literally broke for him; this is how Jesus feels when he sees us making the wrong choices.

His love for us is deeper than any love on this earth.

HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD!

The most simple concept is this: As long as we faithfully trust in God and follow his commandments, everything will fall into place.

This concept came so easily to me as I was praying to God. As tears came down my cheeks, I realized how amazingly SIMPLE this is. Of course there will be hard times in life we need to go through, we just need to faithfully trust in God.

I wanted to share this because I want the world to know and to really understand this..

Give to others like Jesus did!

Yesterday was a great day :) Special Olympics Swim Meet was extremely tiring, but I felt good about helping out. Jesus was always a very giving and loving person, and we were made in his image. Therefore, we need to be just like him! Before entering Spaghetti Warehouse last night from a friend's birthday dinner, Jesus sent an angel to me. I was looking for where to pay for the parking because there was a parking meter. Then, a lady came up to me, and said, "You don't have to pay," & pointed to a sign that I obviously did not see. As I was leaving Spaghetti Warehouse, I was approached by a middle-aged African American man. He saw that I had a to go box in my hand, and told me, "I haven't had anything to eat all day, could I please have some of that?" In my head, I was thinking that he must have been really hungry for him to be so willing to eat a stranger's left overs. I said, "Yeah, sure. God Bless You!" After saying 'God Bless You' multiple of times, he said it back to me. When I got home, I regretted not saying more to him. It was such a perfect time to bring someone to Jesus, yet fear took a hold of me at the moment. I believe that Jesus brought the first lady to me to show me his love, and he wanted me to show this love towards the African American man. Thank you, Jesus for showing me little hints that prove that you are always next to me and are always taking care of me<3

Falling in love with You more & more each day<3

Direct my footsteps according to your word;
let no sin rule over me. -Psalm 119:133

God has given me so much in the past yet I have managed to mess it all up by my own temptations. I never used to follow His will, but I followed my own. Selfish thinking may seem like a solution to many things at the given moment, but as you think back on it, it's not worth it. This time around, I will not let temptations get a hold on me. I will not let temptations ruin one of the best things in my life right now. I pray to God that He may keep me under his protection at all times no matter the circumstance. That He may bring me joy. His joy and not joy from this world. I believe that He will not fail me. He never has and never will. I realized that after I simply lock myself up in my room and listen to worship songs, everything seems to go right. I become more and more optimistic about EVERYTHING. It's truly amazing. And only God can bring this to me. Thank You, Jesus. I truly love You, and this love grows stronger day by day.

Let love tear down these walls...

I've had an amazing two days. Well yesterday I was really bummed out about going to school because I don't have my friends in my classes.. So I was really trying every way to get out of that class and thinking of how I would go to get what I want. I knew that this wasn't right and that I should really be focusing on making new friends instead. Anyways, I still emailed my counselor. I was considering about lying to her and coming up with an excuse so that I could change to another class. But in the end I truthfully told her how I felt about that class. I felt that if I told the truth and didn't get what I want in the end, I would be following God's rules instead of lying. So I tried to pray about this situation. I sat in my room and just sang praises for 10 minutes. The next day came and class wasn't bad at all. I felt like I belonged in the class rather than being the odd one out. PRAISE GOD! She emailed back that afternoon and told me what I knew all along; "i'm sorry i can't make changes like this". Although I did not get what I wanted, I know that God has his own plan for me. And I'm so glad to take his path because I know that his plans are far greater than what I am able to see.

Praise God through all your problems & hardships; He will take care of the rest<3

What a tiring day I had! Let's see what I did, shall we?

I woke up at 7am to attend the church prayer meeting downstairs in my living room. Jennifer asked us to pray for healing in her right leg and when I layed my hand down to pray for her I felt this heat run through my fingers. I undoubtfully believe that it was God working through me. Then, I went back to sleep afterwards until 11am. I woke up, got dressed and ready for work. Praise God!! Do you know why? Because work today was actually fun! I enjoyed learning how to complete certain tasks on excel. Thankfully, my 3 and a half hours went by quickly, and tomorrow I have more work to come!! Afterwards, I went to Star Snow Ice to get a drink with best friend Angel Yip to talk about her feelings & such. Pot luck at Lost Creek Park with Angel's friends... Here comes the exciting part... LAKEWOOD WEDNESDAY NIGHT SERVICE! Michael, Angel, & I went expecting to hear a sermon like any other Wednesday night but instead we got so much more! It was praise night! The entire 2 hours was praise & worship! A.M.A.Z.I.N.G. To finish off the day, I watched Ice Age 3<3 Hilarious movie with someone I care about..a lot.

Once again, Goodnight.

New Beginnings...

There’s always going to be a beginning and an end to everything..

My first day of work was yesterday at the FBISD Administration Building! At first I didn’t know what to expect.. I did a bunch of filing since it was only my first day. I must say I’m pretty proud of myself for not getting any papercuts. Although I did feel like I was about to throw up looking at all those numbers (I work in the Business & Finance department).

Also, I’m new to tumblr (http://teanuhhh.tumblr.com/ ) & now blogspot :). That’s also something new today! I’ve never really had much to blog about, but I better start learning how to now. I’m sure I’ll get used to talking about life and God and many other wonderful things.

Here’s part of a poem I really liked out of Streams In The Desert, a daily devotional I’ve been reading:

I have been through the valley of weeping,
The valley of sorrow and pain;
But the “God of all comfort” was with me,
At hand to uphold and sustain.

When He leads me through some valley of trouble,
His omnipotent hand we trace;
For the trials and sorrows He sends us,
Are part of His lessons in grace.

Well He knows that affliction is needed;
He has a wise purpose in view,
And in the dark valley He whispers,
“Soon you’ll understand what I do.”

As we travel through life’s shadowed valley,
Fresh springs of His love ever rise;
And we learn that our sorrows and losses,
Are blessings just sent in disguise.

Have a good day!

P.S. Let go & let God<3